Lord have all the Mercy! It has basically been a quarter since I last connected 😬
I was doing so well and then life got busy doing what it does best. Adulting is so GHETTO. After doing some reflection, I only thought it would be fair to share some of the personal reasons contributing to my absence.
ADHD 🫨
At the ripe old age of 33, I received an ADHD diagnosis from a psychiatrist y’all. Personally, it does resonate in terms of focus. For the longest time, it was a ‘superpower’. I have always been able to navigate many different tasks at once, which has been helpful for short-term goals.
Focusing on one task would be extremely laborious and I would end up wasting time engaging in low-stake tasks simply to achieve short-term “success” to get that satisfaction of completion. Of course this method of engagement is not optimal when you have many important long-term projects to attend to. This is because adding many “filler” short term tasks to long-term goals begins to prolong the completion of the already long-term goals. The delay further causes focus issues as you become bored with engaging in this project that should have ended some time ago.
I am trying to… implementing tools and strategies that are helping to streamline and better delegate attention and focus to completion of long-term projects. Shout out to Google Calendar! It is my best friend right now and we are only getting closer and closer with time.
Work
My dreams of infecting the world with my point of views become stronger and stronger each day. Some of the main job titles I hold include Clinical Case Worker, Mental Health Specialist, and Director of Operations. I operate as the director in two of these three roles which naturally means that I am investing more time and energy into making decisions that will lead to growth and expansion. It is a lot of responsibility and I am grateful to God for the ability to manage. Even with the grace of God, it still requires time and effort to effectively engage, plan and execute. As I type this out I am thinking to myself, “Damn girl, you’re doing a lot!”
I seem to thrive in the midst of chaos. When in the thick of things, I do not really take stock of the many ups and downs because the ADHD allows me to attune to many stimuli at once. However, there are times when I need to focus and dedicate all my time to one goal.
Writing lists are helpful. Especially lists that are readily available and accessible to view because it’s OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND FOR ME. For example, there is a habit tracker on my fridge that makes it easy to track my behaviour throughout the month. Lord knows I am still working on my addiction to food, but whilst it is still up and stuck- every time I get some food, I am reminded of the various tasks I need to complete in the day.
Making a post on this page was actually one of the habits I listed and look at me here in July making a post as a result =) Better late than never 😎
Relationships💞
A lot of my energy has been invested in developing new relationships y’all. I am growing my community!!! Initially, I was just indulging in the dating scene, but I opened up my desires for connections to friendships and it has been more fruitful than dating romantically. I have made strong connections with like-minded individuals who believe in love, peace and grace. It has been a great experience connecting with such kind-hearted and valuable souls. Imagine being aligned with people who mean you well and support your dreams. It has been great developing these connections. Cultivation requires time and effort. This includes cultivating new and well as ‘older’ connections.
I know you are also interested in getting the deets on the romantic front, but we are still navigating on somewhat tumultuous territory. I’ll keep you posted on how it goes though 😉
Where to go from here?
Although I have a lot of goals I am trying to accomplish and I am always trying to get to the next level- I am trying to be more mindful of enjoying the process. Taking stock of the journey itself and not being hyper-focused on the destination.
One habit I am trying to incorporate more of is meditation. And boy, can it be a tough task to complete with “ADHD”. However I am finding it super helpful as it gives me an opportunity to really connect and reflect on my goals and desires.
So here’s to me sticking to my lists, and trackers, and white boards. And maximizing my potential everyday for the rest of my life!
Thanks for keeping me company on the journey cause it’s only up from here🚀
